Suddenly Separated in VA -- Part 2

[mimivac]

Well, yesterday with H went well, maybe too well. I spent the day cooking and reading which was nice and relaxing for me. H then texted that he wanted to come over around 5:30 and asked if that worked for me. I waited a bit to respond and then said yes.

He came over and we grilled steaks and vegetables on the balcony and then watched movies together (we are on the third season of Helen Mirren's Prime Suspect, an excellent series). He was very affectionate with me and it felt like old times.

I am not sure how I feel about these evenings. On one hand, I feel they are bringing us closer to each other. I feel they are reminding H of how well we get along and how much we adore each other. But then that's where I wonder. That's mind reading and it may not be true. It could also be convincing H that a life apart from me, with the occasional get-together, is ideal. A fun evening, with no strings attached.

It's dangerous for me to see these evenings as any sort of R. I am trying to compartmentalize and see them for what they are: two people who care about each other spending time together. Again, I remind myself that H has not talked about R, and has not made any move that would indicate he wants our M back. So, I will see the evening as a positive and move on, GALing this week and working on myself. Getting back into the swing of things...

Mimi