I understand how difficult it is to have to deal with one affair, nevermind mulitple.
It is doable though.
If it is what you want.
At this point, I suggest that you really try to stop worrying about him and what he wants and try to figure out what YOU want.
There is no point in trying to salvage something if you don't want to.
Make no decisions out of anger or frustration, those are usually the ones you regret.
Questions to consider...
Can you forgive him?
I mean really forgive him, no snooping, no bringing it up in the future...
What do you want out of a R/M?
Additionally, what were his complaints during the M? Why wasn't he happy? Are these things that you can change or want to change?
I won't ask about trust because to be completly honest, while eventually you have to take a leap of faith with trust, right now, your trust is broken and it isn't something that you just decide to have again. It takes time and healing to get to that point.
Keep posting, people are here...
"Acceptance doesn't mean resignation. It means understanding that something is what it is and there's got to be a way through it."--Michael J. Fox
