Brand New here, my story, my ?'s

[Ichrus]

Well tonight is the first night I am home alone with my daughters and W has actually become a WAW. She has been so stressed and worn out and seemingly crazy lately. This is not unexpected, and she has said she would be doing this soon most likely, but it is different when they actually walk out the door.

So W is at her mom's house tonight to get away from me, our home and our M. Not sure entirely how I am feeling about it all...not good certainly, but not all broken down and depressed either. I am sad, hurt, a bit lonely...but I can also see how she does need to get away to get some perspective on her life (and maybe have life teach her some of her own lessons). She plans on coming home early tomorrow to get ready for work and help get the kids ready for school...I am curious to see how this goes and if this becomes a regular thing for her, or if she decides the atmosphere at home is not as bad as living with her parents and sisters again (I think I am fine either way, just curious to see how it goes).

She did try to make the case and point last night that she deserves 50% of the time with the kids and so I should move out of the house for her time...had to dawn a line and fight back against that to make it clear I was not moving out of our house or our bed because she felt so uncomfortable around me...she tries to blame it on me and calls me controlling, but I just tried to validate her feelings while also saying she gets to make her own choices on staying or going...but so do I, and I choose to stay in our house and our bed.

So off to bed alone for the first time because W decided she had to leave...i know it will not be the last time, and I know I will be ok down the road, just suc*s a bit now.