Thank you for your kind words, but believe me it has been a long hard road to get to where I am now
What I can say though, is don't be afraid of divorce, it's a word, I honestly don't know if I'm divorced or not? I haven't heard from my solicitor for months, and have not seen any certification so who knows? But I'm not bothered either way!!!
I love my "wife", and if I can spend the rest of my life with her without being married, I'd take it now!!
I read the books, it helped but I didn't learn, I had a lot of support and some harsh words on here, again it helped, but I still made mistakes, only time really helped me, also the clarity of not drinking made me understand things so much better!!
Another BIG moment was only recently when she told me, she will always love me, but I had to let her go her own way, make her own mistakes, this had to happen for us to ever become a couple again
It's hard, but I have to believe that one day she will know its me she wants, the only issue being is that maybe by that time, I might not want her???
But if I don't want her then I must be happy!!!
I think about her every hour of every day, but she doesn't dominate my life or any desicions I make anymore
