Together Since We Were 15...Now Piecing

[Jenna333]

I'm thinking of walking away from the R. I did a lot of thinking last night (he stumbled in at 4am, 5 with the time change, and he was supposed to be home at 12:30). Since we first started piecing I've noticed that he seems to want me AND the free man life. I say this because he acts without regard to my feelings. Constantly. He does not respect me. He has not shown that he even cares to try. This R is stressing me the hell out every single day. He is acting how he did in the old R. I'm not. I'm trying. He's making disrespectful choices and the blaming them on other people/things.

I'm heartbroken all over again, but this time I know that I'm standing up for what I deserve. He's shown me that he'll continue to do whatever he pleases, regardless of how it makes me feel. I can't believe he did that last night after what happened the night before. He texted me last night while at work. He said, "I'm feeling a bit sullen about last night, and the resulting affair today." Then he goes and makes the choice to break the agreement he made to me? Initially HE said 30mins. Then he changed it to 45. That changed to 3+ hours.

When he got home he thought everything was fine because he 'communicated' with me. It does not even go through his head to respect me, and that scares me. If he had been showing that he's trying, that would be one thing. But he's not. A man who is trying to build a new relationship based on trust and mutual respect wouldn't pull that crap at all, let alone on a day when we hardly spoke because he'd screwed up the night before and then lied about it.

He slept on the couch last night.