Suddenly Separated in VA -- Part 2

[mimivac]

Well yesterday turned out to be OK. I went to brunch with two girlfriends at one of the boutique hotels in Old Town. We gabbed, had fancy brunch drinks, and overall had a great time. Back home, h had arrived and we got along fine, although I found myself being annoyed by some of his habits. It's so weird having him "visit" his own house. One thing that really upset me was a letter he received from the bank confirming his application for a new checking account. I guess he really is getting his own. We've had a joint account since before we were married. It makes me angry that he is this disengaged from the m. But I did well and called my mom rather than blow up at h.

Since he has the car, h took me grocery shopping. I made us the oyster soup for dinner (turned out great), and we watched Werner Herzog's "Cave of Forgotton Dreams." (fascinating). Then h kissed me and went back to his apartment. Wow, I don't know how I feel about all this. In A LOT of ways I was relieved to have the space back to myself again, but it just really brought home the fact that h is gone and wants it that way.

I got ready for bed, but started to get very anxious about money all of the sudden. I think the real source of the emotion was the disconnect and weirdness of H coming and going like that. I ended up downloading a new book on self love (not THAT kind of self love), fixing a glass of steamed milk, and trying to calm down. Doing much better this morning. H said yesterday that we should grill the ribeye steak I bought, so I guess he is coming over again. I don't know how I feel about that. Is it OK for him to come and go as he pleases?

Anyway, today I plan to GAL by cooking for the week, reading my book, trying to get to my closet project, exercising, cleaning up the balcony, starting my flylady cleaning project, and hopefully getting outdoors. Hope everyone makes the most of this beautiful Sunday.

Mimi