Everwhere is walking distance if you have the time

[antlers]

Just a long, emotionally trying day.
Those happen. It's a slow progression. There are setbacks, and backsliding. Boy [color:#FF0000]the overall progress will be forward...even if it's slow...even if the steps are small. [/color]

I bounce back and forth. And right now it's such a muddled mess that I can't imagine myself in five years -- and I can't imagine myself happy. I understand that feeling. I don't think it's an uncommon one...especially for the LBS. there are probably plenty of folks who have felt the same way...who later wondered that they ever felt that bad at one time!


I've been pretty good at that. My relationship with the girls remains strong. That's a great thing! Embrace it...and keep it up!

I want to conquer this the right way. I want to come out of this a better person. I found some peace in thinking "What would Jesus do?"
He'd be happy for XW. She certainly looked happy today. He'd focus on his own journey and the journey of D13 and D9. Yes He would. You can too. If you're able to do it, I think it would help you to do so. It's helping me.

I need sleep. Lots and lots of sleep. Sleep is such a peaceful requiem from the hurt. Hope you get what ya' need.

The truth of the matter is that my emotional well being still revolves around XW and I have to change that. 98 percent of the time I'm doing well. I have to get to 100 percent though. That last 2 percent is a hell of a bridge. yes it does...and I understand. Letting go is a hard thing. Much effort, and time, and action...is required to do it.