taking the time to watch the wave

[BFloat]

So weird thing.. Last night I sent H an email with a suggestion about custody (that was based on one if his suggestions but just tweaked). I did mention it was his original idea. But, I didn't hear back. He hadn't answered my txts from the evenin either.

This afternoon I asked if he received my txt (because it was based on some finances). Still no response which is very unusual. Finally I sent a message saying I was a bit worried as I had not heard back at all. H finally sends me an email saying he was feeling low and he should have answered my txts and apologized.

Tried to flex my validating muscles. He went on to ask if I was going to see the counselor soon.. Another friendship coming to an end which is affecting him even more than the last one because he doesn't have another one to fall back on.. I held my tongue and just tried to empathize and said if he thought it would help then he should see IC. I really wanted to say.. Yes. Their lives don't centre around you.. That's why people have families and spouses who love you unconditionally!!!

He seems to be hitting a low. But I can not get dragged down into that hole. I struggled so much to keep my head above the water and now, it's up to him to do the same. I hope he finds the breaks but.. I just don't know. It makes me sad.

Work again tonight. Daylight savings means I work 1 hr less. Oh the little blessings in life. yay for my trip tomorrow!! Really looking forward to having some fun with the kids. I think the bug museum may be on the sked!