Separation, Moved back in, still ILYBNILWY Part 2

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Thanks guys, I'm doing my best to keep things copacetic around the house. Not always successful, but I try.

W took S to MIL's last night. I got some more less-than-great news about my dad, and wasn't looking forward to S being away for the weekend (despite the fact that I'm working), so I was a bit weepy. I did my best to not show it in front of W, but as I was putting S in the car to leave, I got weak. I tried not to show my face, but did make brief eye contact. I went back inside as fast as I could.

Went to run some errand for my mom and went to see my dad while she was gone.

She called on her way back and asked me what I wanted for dinner. Was mildly surprised by that, thought she'd already made up her mind.

She got home with the food and joined me in my room. She asked me what was wrong, that I'd looked sad when she left. Told her I had a lot on my mind, about my behaviors, my dad, etc... and that her taking S to MILs and the thought that I wouldn't really see anyone this weekend was tough to deal with.

She kind of acted like a fixer, actually told me something along the lines of needing to detach and let things I can't control go. Of course, I agreed. She wasn't being mean or condescending, and actually apologized several times for the terse mood she'd had with me before leaving with S.

She asked me if I wanted to go get some dinner for my birthday (coming up Monday), and I told her I already had plans to eat with my mom. She said we could do it another night. Told her I'd like that. Felt nice to be asked a question like that, though "no expectations" is the rule.

I also spoke with my pastor yesterday. He didn't seem surprised by any of the developments in my sitch, reminding me that I didn't get into this problem overnight, and wouldn't get back out overnight. He asked me if she'd be willing to talk to him. I told him I believed so. She's told me before that she respects and trusts him, so I really believe this is a possibility. He spent more time reminding me about the importance of taking the blame for the things that I've done, and not trying to put it off on anyone or anything else, even alcohol. Glad to have someone to talk to.

I've been busy today and am about to leave work, so I'm not sure if I'm leaving anything out. I'll be back if so! lol