Specifics, please! Can't afford telephone consult!

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Whoever said "work with God" is AWESOME! My IC said keep mail, if he doesn't ask then don't give it to him....credit card number compromised in Italy so received replacement yesterday. Hearing that advice, I put it in my pocket before heading to hockey. Took big long walk with friend and dog first for endorphins, followed by bubble bath and a beer and then off to hockey repeating mantra, looking hot!

H arrived and sat across rink from me and friends. Laughed and talked with them and watched game. He had his head in his hands a few times...so sad...so with 5 mins left in 3rd period walked over to him on MY terms....haven't laid eyes on his beautiful face in 6 weeks....this was hard. Said hi (like giddy high school girl when we WERE in hs and I'd approach him after half time at football game - he played saxophone in band). Whatever....it is where I am right now. Pulled out credit card and broke the ice. Y
Thank you God for this piece of mail AND someone's wise advice.... Talked about stuff and noted that a) he is still wearing his wedding ring b) he kept looking at me which he was NOT doing in January.

Made small talk for 5 minutes. Told him S16 had some sketchy stuff on his phone and game over. Got in car, did not linger, said a casual "see ya'" and shut door and drove off with S16. Came home and texted about it and then talked on phone. He offered to come over. Said we'd talk Sat after I spoke with S16.

Today, text asking if I agree with him about 1/2 of S16's paycheck going into bank. Said absolutely (nice 180 as he thinks we always disagree). Asked if he could come get camp chair from garage for union meeting today. Agreed. Asked if I wanted to talk to S16 together. Agreed b/c we are a "united front". Said he'd be right over.

Thankfully house clean, quick get dressed and casually on screen porch when he arrives listening to NPR.

Talk to S16 and agree on everything. He even said he was calm now.

Then he volunteers to fix lost Internet connection in computer in loft. Enthusiastically agree. Chit chat about health, airline stuff, etc. I am downstairs at kitchen table. He comes down to leave and S16 uncomfortable. H gives him a big hug and says he loves him, pats me on the shoulder and leaves, saying see you later. Calm and cool.

Next hockey game Monday night. Then we leave for Germany on Tuesday.

Continuing to not initiate contact but answering his texts. Tried to make him feel comfortable in our home with us here by being friendly and detached and sticking to topics of conversation he initiated. Mysteriously received text while we were sitting on couch on porch! LOL! (he asked me to sit next to him when we talked to S16 who was across from us in chair).

Birds singing, beautiful day, plans later, assembled my hydro-stacker with S16 for growing herbs and lettuces. Volunteering at church tomorrow.

I think I understand DB better....was maybe conflicted b/c of advice from IC.