Hey bf, sorry for the custody complications but I love that you can separate your feelings about the M and what's important for the kids.
When I'm at these difficult points it helps me to make a gratitude list of all the good things I have. I can then spend more time thinking about those rather that the negative.
Me 57/H 58 M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13
Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do. I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering. Caroline Myss