taking the time to watch the wave

[BFloat]

Thanks guys! Slowly getting on that board to ride the waves and enjoy each passing moment!

Today H and I had to have a talk about my potential new schedule at work. Currently H has the kids every second weekend but on my new line, that wouldn't work as I would be on shift every 3rd weekend. We were trying to figure it out and I was getting teary thinking about how I had never wanted it to get to this point... Where we would be discussing who gets what weekend.. H asked if I was ok and I just had to excuse myself for a bit.

It's not that I'm sad about my M (I mean I'm sad.. But I'm not if you know what I mean).. I'm sad for my kids. Because they can say what they want.. But ultimately.. It doesn't matter. Because it's H that made the decision for all of us.

H forgot he had the kids this weekend. I had asked him a while back about this weekend because I had to work. H had to cancel his plans. Boo hoo. He was actually very good about it. Didn't expect him to come until after S came home from school but he showed up to take him to school.

Anyway, when S came home he was all excited to show H the guitar and kindle. He asked me what's up with the guitar? Is someone wondering what I've been up too? Not pining away? Lol. That's mind reading isn't it? H pulled out my guitar and started strumming it and trying to tune it. Was tempted to say.. Hey! That's mine!!! But I held back.

It sounds like I'm having a down weekend but.. I'm really not! I'm staying at my sister's this weekend because I'll just be working and she lives very close to my workplace. So.. My GAL tonight was carrying my niece and spinning us around until we were dizzy.. And then we danced to music.. It was fun.

Lol. Working for 2 nights and then heading to the island w/ gf and her kids!! I'm really looking forward to it!