So I have made a firm decision to ride it out here Gritter. I understand your concern. In my heart I just feel it is the right thing to do. I have thought it over, and over, and over. I have no expectations. This is for me. Because I will feel better about myself going this route.
I want to go home, sure. I want to do right by my S even more. Anyway the decision is made. I made it. And I like it.
Things are going good. I mean to say I am doing good. DBing. Not backsliding. Interactions are friendly, neighborly.
She is softening some. Smiling a little more. I know she could jump ship anytime. I'm ready. In fact I'm kinda bored. There is a part of me that just wants to eff or fight. Either way. Bring it on.
Then I remember patience.
I'm taking S to the circus tomorrow. He has been wanting to go to one for a few months. So it should be a good time.
I'm gonna grill burgers and boudan tomorrow nite. I got a nice cigar and a few beers making my mouth water too. Ahh springtime.
