If trying to save your M and build trust with your H make you an idiot, then this whole forum is full of idiots.
This will be a hard weekend for certain. Don't make any decisions based on emotion.
Get some exercise along with a healthy diet.
Eat, pray and (self) love for now.
hugs gr8
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