Husband left me...feel hopeless

[hopingandpraying]

I do think he "gave up" because he says he did give his best effort and that it still wasn't good enough for me, but that's not true at all. I was getting there...it just wasn't at his pace. He thought I should have already completely trusted him. He thinks we'll never get back to where we used to be, but I told him that I know we can because we have something special (that was before he left and after I told him on New Year's that I wasn't happy with myself.) He disagreed because he said he tried. The thing is though he is not inadequate to me. I love him with all of my heart and would never leave him and he is the best person for me.

He has always said in our relationship that I'm too good for him, but I have not given him that idea. It's his own insecurities. I have always told him that he's the one for me and that I love him and no one is ever going to take his place.

I do really think he's also hit a huge bought of depression, because not only does he want to get rid of me, but he wants to start his whole life over...work, wife, house, etc. He also just bought a new car 3 weeks before all of this happened. And the thing is...he took me with him to buy the car because he didn't want to make this decision on his own and wanted to share the car buying experience with me. He did not have to take me because the car he traded in...I was not even on that loan. So these are the things that I'm not understanding.

He is currently staying at a friend's empty condo, but is looking for studio apartments on a month to month lease, which is good and bad. I don't want him to move into this other apartment...obviously I want him home!!! I have not shared my feelings with him about this though because I am giving him his space. I just wish I knew if we could reconcile...this pain and heartache is killing me. The only thing I want is him home working on our marriage!