This week has really been tough, just thinking about all of this. I'm lucky to have a lot of good distractions right now. Family, friends, things to do, etc. My W and I have texted back and forth twice since she moved out last week. They were very brief, but in each of them, she wrote that she was thinking of me. In fact, her last text said "I'm thinking of you always."
I'm sure a lot of people on this forum that are dealing with a WAW (or H) alternate their feelings between sorrow and anger. The constant thoughts of "what did I do" ... to "how could they do that to me."
There have been so many conflicting thoughts in my head as to why a 180 may or may not work. On one hand, the lack of emotional intimacy or "connection," as she has said, suggests to me the need to be around my W (anti-180 behavior, essentially). But then the logical side of me steps up and reminds me that she stated that she desired space. And that she said she wishes she had a H she wanted to have sex with. And that she had fallen out of love with me. And that she had lost respect. (Those are the thoughts that make me angry - and that make me want to do all I can to do a proper 180). It is tough, but I've gotten through this first week and hope I can remain strong going forward.
