I so respect you for what you have achieved. When I separated from my exh I explained to him that once he walked out the door there would be no going back for me; I did not want a yo-yo marriage. That was exactly what my ex wanted. He actually said that he wanted to "try" new woman and come back if it didn't work out for him.
Anyway much respect to you for your resilience and tenacity. I think that you deserve to let go and move on now :-)
