TIme to take care of you.

You made mistakes are you ready to choose differently?

Sounds to me you are making excuses for her and yourself.

You either want to be a better man or you don't

You either want to save your M or you don't

You decide because it is up to you don't let her decide for you who you are and who you will be.

So? What kind of man do you aspire to be?

What are your values? What does your M and your vows mean to you?

Figure that out first.

My goal is to some day be the person my dog thinks I am