Too late is correct. He came, repaired hole in attic vent, mowed lawn, etc, and I was gone. I have absolutely NO desire to see him and pretend like he doesn't live across town screwing that other woman. So, I left. Did I give him control, yes. So I will rethink this if it happens again. Today, a $115 bill to teleflora came onto our account. I could barf...so much for my hard earned changes. I felt sooo good today and now I am spiraling in DISGUST!
I decided DBing is so hard because my good sense says to detach and as soon as i am assaulted with his nasty choices then i am thrown into a spiral. So, it is hard. It is hard on ME!
Ick, ick, ick. I have nothing but detest and disgust for these two. Hatred threatens to take over my soul. Yes, I give him this power over me as I sit here alone, vacillating between fully ATTACHED and intellectually knowing DETACHMENT is best option.
Ughh.....and I was having such a good day.
Me: 44 H: 45 Married 22 S 18, S 16 Bomb 8/11, Second Bomb 1/12
