So, OM lives 1000 miles away, but she spent about 8 weeks there last summer and has seen him at least every month since then. I read the books a week and a half ago, but feels like a long time Some 180s I'm trying to implement are: I used to make her coffee in the mornings. I try to smile and even laugh when we are around ea other (even when she's been on the phone w/OM for the past hour). I'm super working on my temper with kids. I've been going downhill with them for a few years, and really really need to get control. I'm focusing on recovery. Have a c appt and starting back to a 12-step group. As I said, porn is symptomatic, and I'm also trying to pray, which is so hard. But that's the center of everything. I am biting my tongue till it bleeds about OM. Some on the horizon: I think I'll start playing soccer again. I think I should break out my cello and dust it off.
