I think we all need to go AWOL on the boards at times, so I totally understand.
Yes, the official day of the bomb has passed, however....the anniversaries keep coming.... do they not?
This coming Friday will be the anniversary of the day that my H confirmed my newly formed suspicion that there might be an OW involved. It took me waaaay to long to even consider such a possiblity.
The photos my H gave me of OW and the two of them, I keep in my bedroom side table. Since he gave them to me, I figure there's no reason to hide them. What he does NOT know about is the file full of documents and notes I have tucked away in a cabinet. I avoid the file evidence like the plague.
I don't think that it is unhealthy to hold on to our evidence. For reasons known and unknown to me, I view it as part of our healing process. Some things should not be rushed because, as you have stated, this whole business IS a process.
We do have services here in my part of the States, such as "Cares" which I use. I have someone come in three times a week and help out. And yes, it is a "Godsend". I had NO help of any kind right up until about mid 2003 and the caregiving duties were entirely too overwhelming - even without the trauma of my H's betrayal. It is because of "Cares" that I am able to go to school three days a week now.
I'm most definately an "introvert". Socializing has always been a bit painful for me - even as a young child. However, I'm usually fine when around people I know well and who seem to be of the same feather.
One thing that I would like to do someday when my life finds some reasonable order again, is to start a political focus group here at our house. My H and I are political activists and I seem to have a more dominate personality when engaging in political discourse.
I also need to aggressively work on my health. H and I are both predisposed to Depression, and although we are managing right now, it certainly doesn't feel good. I'm also suffering with GAD, (generalized anxiety disorder) something that I'm sure you can relate to Shiny.
Other than that, my H continues to be wonderful and I can hardly believe this is the same man as before.
Anyhow, I think that another echo purge is due soon - just not right now.
p.s. Have you and CJ recovered from your illnesses yet? I hope so.
