I'm so sorry you are feeling dragged backward like this.

You just had another tremendous hurt put on you by the apparent hostility from his brothers. It is going to take time to get past that. Give yourself a break, be kind to yourself and in time you will be able to move past it.

We all have to process each blow as they come.

Now, with your H living so far away, it's going to be difficult to gauge what is going on with him and with your R. He sounds like he is depressed and angry based on what he keeps saying about his life and his job. He's not a happy man. Do you think you would be able to be rebuild a R with someone who is like that? What if it were you who was depressed and angry? Would you want to be faced with the people you had hurt?

Sometimes it helps to process if you can put yourself on the other side of the coin and look at it that way.

Do you have fun plans with your D8 for this weekend?

T19 M15 S19 XH47 M43
bomb12/4/07
PA5/07
S12/26/07
D final 11/17/08
Back together with no defined R 05/2010
confused....to say the least!!!