Mattie,
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My own father suffered from depression and took his own life when I was but 5 years old. He was never diagnosed with depression, as that was 45 years ago,

Oh, I barely know what to say.
How very sad.
This, in itself, must have left a deep scar.

I'm happy to hear that your H has gotten help and is a "completely different person" now.

Sounds as though you could really use some stability in your life after all you've been through.

My guess is that, life has taught you to be very compassionate.
I can hear it in your posts.

{{{{{{Mattie}}}}}}}

Jeannine