I think I've figured out that there's no quick fix to my sitch, no new person who can end my pain, that I merely need to be patient and focus on me. Hence the guitar lessons and workout/running efforts.
There were roughly 5 years between my 1st D and 2nd M. I can see how you might think that is quick, but it seems like a reasonable amount of time to wait for me. I firmly sat on the shelf after the first D, not dating for 1 year prior to dipping my toe into the dating pool again.
You're right it is is best for me to wait things out and focus on just me - my personal growth, my financial recovery, my son.
Reaching out for her - hugs, asking for a kiss, etc... iniitially, it was hard for me to adjust to how quickly things became negative. But now it is clear she wants nothing to do with me.
