@ mr mr - I'm glad you found the words comforting at the time. I too have experienced moments where posts were life savers.
@ DG - Thank you! You've grown by leaps and bounds. It's amazing to see how much we we've all grown this year.
Journal -
Feeling weird the past couple of days. I've been really missing my w the past few days. It's been a good bit since I've felt this form of sadness.
Perhaps it is because I'm experiencing awesome things in my life. Had a Sunday morning get together with the assistant director from house.. Now I'm part of playing with cars in the desert.
Im starting to do all the things we moved out here for me to experience.. It's sad she's not part of it.
It could also be that we haven't spoken in a few wks. Since our last conversation we haven't had much to discuss and she has let me be since I stood up for myself.
My guess is that because there is no tension, the good stuff is starting to surface. It makes me wonder if she ever feels the same which is pointless.
I think it's time for me to delete her on fb. I went dark on it two months ago to clear my head... Now I'm avoiding goin back on caz I don't want to sever my last tie to her.
I realize that nothing is final but it all seems soo forever. It seems that when I delete her.. She'll be gone forever.....
That scares me greatly.. But I guess I need to remember that if she wanted me to be part of her life... She would fight for me.
*sigh*
M(f): 40 D'ed: 8/12
Show empathy when there's pain. Show grace when warranted. Kindness in the midst of anger. Faith in the face of fear.
