New trying to DB-Help!

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I do feel better almost every day. I'm trying my best to focus on me and my kids and just seem happy and pleasant around W. She still seems to be trying in her way, and I guess that's the best I can hope for now.
Working on unconditional love, it's just that living in limbo land is frustrating to say the least. I will not S or D, so that is in her court, IF she wants to go that route, I just know that being with her and close it's hard not to be physical beyond a kiss here and there. THAT, seems like a waste to me. Not that I'd even consider any other R right now, but I do have human needs there and this is the longest I've been without for over 25 years. Also, all the working out makes me even more wanting sexual relations, so that is tough. I know monks and such go a lifetime, but that's not me. This physical need, not just sex, but hugging, etc., is my toughest struggle right now, in all honesty.
Meeting with my minister tomorrow to pray about our upcoming vacay in 3 days and for spiritual advice...