Denial....its not just a river in Egypt...

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S15 was happy when they got back, he felt like he finally got his D to come over and talk to him, but he said he still felt like he just gave him a lot of excuses. He doesnt care, he just wants his D, any way he can get him. We talked in kitchen for a minute and he told me that S15 told him he smoked pot to get a reaction from him....I asked why he hadnt called or come over to speak to S15 till now and he got angry and said he didnt know what to say to him and was shocked so he just didnt....I said so I guess I was just on my own with that? I was shocked to and wasnt sure what to say but someone had to handle it...he then got all defensive and said he couldnt talk to me and that he never could and THATS why we arent married anymore...always attacking me...It hurt my feelings so bad, I go out of my way to try to get him to fix his relationship with S15 and Im the bad guy...he said hes sick of me trying to make him handle things the way I think they should be handled?????
S15 said while they were talking his D told him that his gf was nervouse about meeting him....in the middle of all this, with everything that is going on with S15, he brings up the gf ....like S15 needs to deal with that right now to. I couldnt believe it. Always thinking of himself, he really had no clue why S15 was upset with him. and didnt want to discuss what was being done about it or how WE should handle it. before he walked out he said "Im going to say goodby to MY son"...like IM not his parent, im not the one here everyday dealing with everything while he goes months with no contact, and the only reason he was here talking to him now was because I called him and said get over here and talk to your son.....Im so sick of it all. Its so sad to watch S15 settle for what ever he can get, like a little 5 yr old who just wants his daddy.

I have no way of knowing what money he has spent on her...I just know he makes 5 times the amount I make a year. and says he has no money. He constantely tells S15 he has no money to get him anything he asks him for. He filed bankruptcy and has no car payment so he has no debt and gives me pocket change every week, so he is living quite well. I will not be caving in this time..I made him an offer before that was substancially lower then what the state required and he refused it after telling me it was fine. so im done with that, just nervouse about what his L will try to do. He saw S15 for a total of 11 hours last month...how he can justify not financially supporting him is beyond me. He says he works to much to have parenting time (thats exactley what his L said) but doesnt want to pay the full required support....
its like talking to a irrational crazy person...how does he not hear how crazy that sounds???
My L is good but she is younge and only been in practice for a couple of years, his has been in practice for 12 yrs and sounds like a big gun..I havent talked to my L yet, just got an email from her and we are waiting for the proposal they are sending to us to go over. I feel like he is punishing me for something but cant figure out what, he wanted a D, i guess he just wanted me to roll over and play dead and is mad that I wont but he knows me and should not be surprised that Im not. but if feels like he has me down and just wants to keep kicking me...what is that all about? I have said what can i do to make this work better between us and he just says I dont want it to be this way but then attacks me???????? I give up...