I return to the board after a hiatus and drama erupts this evening. My W came to pick up my S tonight. I ended up calling her as I was getting ready to leave to make sure she was still coming.
As I am about to walk out the door, I hear the garage door open, figuring my W is here to pick up my S. I walk out to the car to leave - garage door is open, but no W. I go ahead and leave at this point, but I call my W to see if she knew anything about the open garage door. I pass her going the other way right when she answers her phone. I see a passenger in the front seat with her. I asked her why she had opened the garage door but left - she was very vague in her answer. I kept driving to my destination but I was very suspicious. I wasn't even a mile away before I made my U-turn. I went back home. I was ready to confront my W. I was ticked.
I get home and my W's still out in the driveway. She knew I was ticked. I asked her about her passenger in the car. She said he was a friend. Do I believe her? Hard to say. If I do, I am very skeptical. I still felt the need to lay down a boundary. I told her I was not OK with her bringing other men on my property. She tried to defend it by saying that we're not together anymore, so she's free to date as she pleases. I told her I absolutely didn't agree with her, but I can't control what she does. I also told her I didn't like what she's showing my son.
So I don't know exactly where I'm at tonight. I feel a big wave of ambivalence washing over me. I also feel like I should stay the course for now and not waver.
For some reason, I'm not feeling as much angst as I think I should be feeling right now. Maybe that will come in time. LOL
I was ticked. 
