New trying to DB-Help!

[jlove]

4 More days till week long trip alone w/ W and in-laws. nervous, but feeling better about it. I'm just going to be the H that anyone would be in love with. Then, a week after we get back from that, I'm the host for her 40th bash with all family (all in-laws)and friends all night. This is a busy month for us, then we move on to several friends and family's weddings coming up and summer vacay with the kids.
It's kind of surreal that we are in la-la land as a couple and all these activities going on. D finding out and freaking out about OM and W having to deal with someone other than me and my pain over it, I think was a different shock to W that she hadn't thought of and maybe the fog is lifting. She swore to both of us that it was over, so I think she's trying. She told me she's daily "trying to do the right thing." i think she is on her level, and i have to have compassion for her there.
I have been doing many GAL activities with kids and on my own, and we talk about most everything EXCEPT R, so it's kinda peaceful here, just odd that all these activities going on and were not physically close except for a couple of kisses a day.
I think we'll eventually work the R out, and now I think I'm more realistic on timeframe and lack thereof. I assumed after 1st bomb we'd be on the outs for a couple of weeks, and we did get physical about a week after, but a couple of months past that, we went to where we are now.
All I know, is that God has a plan, and however it ends up, I'll be ok. That is what I keep reminding myself when I doubt.