My W has said that's it not about me that it's about her very clearly. She has said I'm a great husband, father, friend but she feels like she is more of a detriment to our S and I then good. A few nights ago she was sending text messages that she is so uncomfortable inside of her own skin. That small events such as birthday parties are unbearable. She feels like she can't make friends and especially small talk with other people. I know her anxiety is at an all time high. Especially after dumping the meds cold turkey. Lots of "garbage" bombarding her all the time. Flashbacks to the abuse, heart palpitations, etc. She has been going through bouts of extreme energy and days where she has none at all.
I want my wife to express her thoughts to me and be clear and precise. But in reality, her thoughts aren't even clear to herself so I must have no expectation. I believe I know what to do to ensure there is not a repeat of last night because I can't absorb the pain and also expect to be able to focus on the 37 steps. On one side, I want her to be away so she can focus on her issues, but on the other hand I want her to be here as well. In the end, the time away is a gift.
