Wendy, Kml is telling you the truth and her information is spot on. I know that you are trying to figure things out, but weigh everything before you do it. Please do not make any decisions while you are upset or angry...you have to have a good, clear head when making decisions such as this.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.