Hope you are doing well. I did get an apology. I thought that he was on the road of healing, but it does not seem to be the case. I agree with you, sometimes I miss my ex, other times not. Focusing on positive thoughts instead of the what ifs has helped me.
Me: 46 H:44 Together: 25 years Married: 20 years Separated: 11-30-06 Divorced 12-21-07 OW: EA began 2005 PA began end of 2006 3 children,20, 16, 6 ex asked for forgiveness 01/16/11