Well, we ended up at Pier 1. She found a nice woven rug for under her bed. Sage green trim sisal middle. And a nice Papasan Chair with a solid red cushion. Her new room has a nice water view looking down on Pearl Harbor. We are still on "The Perfect Headboard" hunt!
My friend found out she doesn't have to have chemo. Best news ever!
I actually feel I need to be making some more decisions. Not that I actually have to do things, but that I need to have a plan, in case the house does sell quickly. Because my H has every intention to put it on the market ASAP.
I was pricing condos here in my town. There are some affordable ones out there. It would be downsizing, but I could keep the essentials and get rid of or store the rest.
Having a plan doesn't mean giving up on H, just trying to make a new better life for me. I'm leaving room in my plans for him to catch up. But I'm looking hard at his actions and not seeing anything but determination in his current course. So I need to see a future for me, where I can be happy.
I've been looking hard into myself and my part of the debacle that is my life right now. And I can't change the past, but know lots more now about people and how I interact with them. I am changing myself a lot.
But find it very funny how often I tell myself "Not my problem".
My sister found it amusing how he spent over an hour vacuuming the master bedroom. She said: "Good. Then in a week he can see how fast dog hair re accumulates." And his hair all over the bathroom floor. I'm no longer sleeping up there and haven't used that shower since October. I already showed him how to clean the shower, since he had an impressive red mold project growing on the marble walls........
I've been pretty miserable this past year. Enough is enough. I can keep his food stocked, but I don't have to be here to eat it with him! He has a huge fear of being alone. I don't.
My efforts to go dark are hard. My H [censored] me back in so easily. So I am just trying to be away as much as possible. I have a backup plan to be busy sorting out the pile of donation stuff in the evenings, instead of sitting and watching TV.
Off to got some work done! (Quilting work for now!)
Aloha, Wendy
Me 57 XH 58 Sons age 32 & 27 M:32 D final 9/12 Bought 10 Acres and Living the Dream!
