THE SHOW MUST GO ON #2

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I think it is important to try to understand the R and as has been pointed out, some of us had Rs that were more than half our lives.

I still have moments where I miss X. I also have times when I am very glad that he is gone. A lot of the time I am just not thinking about him very much any more.

When I started this journey I felt certain he would return. I guess the question of Why? is one that is hard to cope with. I realized that I don't necessarily want an answer to that question. But I do still think about apologies, some recognition of my situation. Trusting got an apology, which can help with healing but can also spur some hope or a sense of possibility that may not be there.

And with MLC, I think it's particularly difficult, because a R that we might have found fulfilling for a long time disintegrates so quickly.