I believe what TG said is accurate on another post. In my case I'm not experiencing a vanilla WAW...it's more like vanilla with a bunch of toppings. I'm not even sure if my W is really a WAW or a MLC or a combination of all the above or something completely different. I'm on chapter 5 of DR. I'm going to go back through an re-read the chapter once finished. It has provided me with insight. I realize that my W might describe me as critical even though I don't intend to be. While reflecting back I can recall certain times where I'd think to myself...damn I'm so lucky. My W is beautiful and looks stunning this morning. But instead of telling her that I wouldn't say a word.
My W called and asked to come over last night. Yesterday we also had lunch together. We had a nice evening. Put our S to bed. She then asked to lay down for a bit which lead to RBTL. All facilitated by her. Afterwards we laid for a bit longer then she started to get dressed to head back to her apt. I couldn't help but feeling like I had just been used. Not that I'm some superstar and not that I couldn't tell the fact that she loves me, it just really left an empty feeling inside. I kept it in and let her know that it was a nice evening and I hope she had a good day at work tomorrow (today). After she left I cried myself to sleep. Since the W has been out, about 4.5 weeks, we have continued to be inmate. She always wants to kiss and hug and what not. I'm just not sure if I should draw the line somewhere. But maybe it's one of the little signs that MWD points to. Confusing...
