H came in to me around 1am this morning crying saying he's so so sorry. I said to myself here we go again. I was only partially asleep and could feel his presence in the doorway. He sat down on the bed crying saying he was just so so sorry.
This happened before...when I brought up OW right after the bomb. He pulled himself together (or so I thought), told me to go back to sleep, and kissed me on my forehead. I hear him STILL crying in the living room, so crazy me goes out there.
He's literally all to pieces. I sit down and just rub his back. No real reaction from me. I ask him to tell me what is going on for him to be acting like this. He never answers, but is finally able to get it together. I come back to bed and he stays on the couch.
I'm beginning to think there's some other stuff going on here. I don't think he was crying to get a reaction. Given some of the other stuff I know about H's recent actions, I'm more positive than ever that he needs counseling or some kind of help.
I didn't get much sleep after that. A migraine started and wouldn't quit. I still have it now. Last night really drained me.
