One of the things that I hope to accomplish by writing out some of these nasty memories surrounding my (bomb) anniversary, is to cleanse my mental palate so that I might better taste the sweetness of the life I know share with my H.
The other thing that I'm hoping this exercise will accomplish, will be that others find a common thread here. That it acts as a life line and provide a portion of hope for those of us who are navigating this long and tiresome path.
And please keep in mind, that although I am recounting my H's devious behavior from a year ago, I in no way wish to discount my own responsibility in the overall disintegration of my marriage. This is key to successfully repairing a damaged relationship and keeping it on track.
Even if your H were to come back home now, do you really think that you have done the work that is so very necessary to hold it all together?
I say this with kindness in my heart, Rachael.
There is still too much focus on the OW.
The lions share of energy NEEDS to go to solutions, not problems.
I know that you know what you need to do, so....
How about writing out some short-term goals along with some actions to support them. Yes, yes?
Yes, yes? 
