You know Ro, I think the key, if you want to keep on keepin' on, is to let him go. Really release him in your heart and mind and then live your life accordingly.
Easier said than done but worth a try. Act as if.
I can't even figure out how to do that. I was a little further along with my mind last week. Then I think his being helpful and all snagged me again. Most days his actions and OW bother me, but not that much. I mean I know its going on, but I just go on with my life.
I know I'll never understand H's actions. I think today, I had just had enough. It's strange to me that he says he's struggling with his A, but is making no moves to end it or move out. I guess because I'm decisive person, and once I make a decision it's done. Right or wrong. I don't understand all trickery and back and forth.
I'm better now, but feel like I may never get detached from this. I GAL, and as soon as I get back here and see him, it starts all over again. It's not like we have a huge house to hang out in separate rooms. And I'll be d@mned if his still being here is going to have me avoiding my own home.
I need to pray about what I want next. God was telling me to "be still". And I did that for two months. I'm so jacked up emotionally now, I need to go back to Him for some more direction. Clearly, I'm not doing something right here.
