OMG I cant believe she is gone

[MrBond]

Next thing you need to do is get your b@lls back from your W. Do that by calming yourself and letting go of the things that you can't control.

You say that you have no one to hang out with, no friends available, etc. Then go out for a run. Meditate. Read. Do whatever it takes to purge your W out from your system right now.

She's pressing you for a D. YOU have the right to not do what she wants. Her needs are no more important than yours. Calm yourself and take back control of YOUR life.