So I wasn't the only one who got goose bumps reading your poem...I am really not a HUGE poetry fan, but Jeannine, that was beautiful and haunting.
Boy, can I relate to what you gals are saying about hindsight being 20/20!
Why didn't I pay closer attention when our 10th anniversary dinner conversation was nearly nonexistant? Why didn't the massively increased number and duration of "business trips" catch my attention (oh, it did, but only to bitch about it ).
The late work hours? The odd phone call from CJ's SIL (when OW called THERE looking for CJ...he insisted it was a wrong number)...his cell phone being off during trips...him NOT leaving his hotel phone #'s or calling at 11:00 p.m. as he used to.
But like many of us (I think? )...I was SO COCKY!!!
CJ wouldn't DARE do anything like that! He just didn't have it in him! (I took some comfort in his "performance problems" HA! ).
And anyway, I was the one who'd complained that our M was dull, I was the one who wanted to go for counselling, I was the one reading all (not quite ALL! ) the books...I was completely blindsided...in my arrogance I NEVER thought this would happen to me. But it DID.
As for the memories...mine are definitely fading. I have not looked back over my journals or bb entries from last year since I wrote them (except for that brief foray on the anniv of bomb #1 which only served to make me feel WORSE!).
We will never "forget"...but the bad memories can fade...if we let them..and I suppose each one of us does it in our own way.
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)...I was SO COCKY!!! 
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) the books...I was completely blindsided...in my arrogance I NEVER thought this would happen to me. But it DID.
