ok.. so i'm trying to pinpoint where this sudden surge of emotion is coming from..
last night i had a dream.. POW was in it. and in my dream.. i let her have it!! i went on a rant.. telling her she was a homewrecker.. saying things like.. look my kids in the eye and try to justify your actions.. karmas a b*tch! you name it.. i said it!! that fuelled by my conversation w/ H last night about finances and him getting his own place.. blegh! .
It's good to get this out, god do I know how you feel! I think your sitch proves to the world that when a S cheats or your H did or my W did, its not about you and your qualities as a woman...its the H's own issues and the OW really has nothing to do with YOU as a comparison.
i was sad this evening. thinking about the dissolution of my M. hurting for my kids.. feeling sorry for myself. and then i had to remind myself.. the outcome has not yet been determined. it is in God's hands and i just have to continue on this journey.
That's the same advice you gave me for my sad weekend. I'm glad you can give yourself the same advice. And you are right. Mach told me today to just keep getting up and dusting off. That's what we do. Then God sees our efforts and intervenes in ways we often can't see.
i still have a few aces up my sleeve.. i am still the mother of his 2 beautiful children.. i am loving, kind, and just an all around awesome person (ok.. trying to give myself a pep talk).. i'm also beautiful (might as well add that.. i'm on a roll).. ummmm.. hmmmm.. i got nothing else.
Ha ha, so true
this is by far the hardest.. most painful walk i've ever had to make. i am just so thankful for the support, insight, and love i receive here. it has been my lifeline through some of my darkest hours. ack! now i have the LOTR soundtrack playing in my head!!
Yeah so painful but you're strong enough, and strong enough to admit when you need help. LOTR...the dark riders are all around us this weekend.