Forgiveness

[antlers]

Backing off is, I believe, good advice. I've said how I feel. She knows how I feel. It doesn't matter.
I miss having an emotional connection. I feel so lonely.

I woke up at 3 this morning. Saw I had a text from son sent at 2:15 this morning (school night). It's the first communication I've received from him since he left on Jsn. 11th.....

"Can u set all of my Abercrombie clothes somewhere so I can get because they all to small for me now and I wanna sell them"

Here's the short exchange that followed.....

Me - you still up?
Him - yeah
Me - I miss ya' son.
Him -
Me - Don't you have to get up in like 4 hours to get ready for school?
Him -
Me - Well, it was nice talkin' to ya' son. At least I got a "yeah" out of ya'! 😜
Him -
Me - Goodnight. I love you son, and I think about you every day.
Him -
Me - Son, I feel like us not communicating with each other is bad for both of us...and I'd sure like it if you and I started communicating with each other again.
Him - Please stop texting me. Don't respond
Me - :-(
Him -
Me - I don't know why you're being this way to me.........
But I still love you.

That was it.
Heartbreaking.