Learning as I go

[tested metal]

I am watching a Dr. Wayne Dyer special on PBS right now and he is right! If I can imagine the future of my life the way I want it, it will self actualize. If I think W is in MLC then I will treat her as such and she will behave as such. If I give her unconditional love as I will everyone else, and forgo my ego, then true peace will come to me.

Money will not matter,
my past relationship with W will not matter,
IF W ever comes back will not matter,
because I am a good person,
A good father,
A good husband,
A good therapist,
A good friend,
A good teacher,
A good disciple,
and A good man,

The poem IF is written based on this philosophy.

I WILL start to better my life starting NOW.

I WILL do what is in my power to protect myself and my child,
not out of malice, or spite,
but to allow my dreams to be self actualized.

W is a good mother and although she may not be choosing the path I wish for her, or wish for my daughter to be exposed to, but it will not affect my relationship with my daughter or my W as far as what I am feeling. If she gets full custody, I will make the best of my time with my daughter and enjoy very moment I have with her.

I WILL not worry about money. I can be happy without it. IF W wants to play the Win/Lose game, I WILL not play. She may feel like she has won, but if I don't let it affect me, then she hasn't. It won't matter to me either way.