Specifics, please! Can't afford telephone consult!

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HELP!!!! So....how do you deal with the quiet? I am fine all day, heard great sermon on forgiveness, came home, sent S18 back to college with cookies I baked, have a few plans next week and filling in those holes, and I sit here in this big empty, quiet house and feel like I could burst into tears. The uncertainty and loneliness of this limbo is excruciating. My husband has been gone 1/2 of every month for years and I wonder how this is different...I guess I need to focus on that? Any ideas? Is there some mantra to repeat about this? Didn't someone else ask that in another post? I grew up with big bustling family. I don't understand how there is so much loneliness in the world. I have talked my friends TO DEATH I think...I even avoid talking about my situation and I still feel like a burden. All I really want to do is crawl onto someone's sofa and listen to the noises of their family. We always had the kids and their friends here....we have a skateboard half pipe, the hockey goals, you name it. I always ordered pizza and had soda and freezer pops for the extra kids. This just hurts.