Man, I've been GAL all weekend yet my W and my ridiculous sitch continue to consume every idle cycle of my brain. I am trying not to love her anymore but it doesn't work. I try not to think about my stepkids but they are always on my mind. I used to drink to deal with these types of emotions, but I don't anymore. I go to church, I pray for help but the feelings never subside. I am doing everything I know to detach, but it's not helping. I have a lot to do at work tomorrow and I already know I will not be focused. I'm only six months into this, it would be awesome to know at what point I will stop feeling like this. I have GAL, and quite frankly without my W and my family in it, it isn't fun.
Just venting although that's not going to help either... At least when I come I hear I realize I am not the only one their special personal hell. I visited my folks yesterday and they continue to tell me to let it go, that she hasn't made any moves toward wanting to work anything out, in fact quite the opposite.
As much as I want to I haven't contacted her, I guess that is my positive for the day... lol God Bless you all
me 38 W 30 T 3 M in 05/2010 Separated 08/2011 Stephchildren (all hers) SS17, SS12, SD8 I filed 8/27, she countered I filed response 9/5 Anxiously waiting on the judge!
