I know where you're coming from Gineen, and I understand it and agree with you. I do not want to feel the urge to express any of this anymore to her. I've just had some stuff on my mind recently and I felt the need to communicate it. I said exactly what I felt, and now I don't need to communicate it anymore.

I know she knows my feelings. My focus is coparenting. Our kids are my top concern. I don't want to fight with her about anything, at all, ever. I honestly am not looking for forgiveness from her. I have in the past...but not anymore. That won't happen, and I'm OK with that. She sees forgiving me as giving me a clean slate...and she's not going to do that. And that's OK. I don't want to drive her away...I just want to coparent our kids.

"Always go straight forward, and if you meet the devil, cut him in two and go between the pieces." - William Sturgis, clipper ship captain, 1830's.