Labug...I am the man I want to be. It's self confidence, self actualized, loving father, friend to many, spiritual walker, giver, lover without hangups or baggage, adventurer, dreamer, writer, citizen of humanity, yogi, warrior, peacemaker.
I know who I am although I did need this past year to break out of some childhood trauma. I was this man as I describe in my M. I chose her and willingly took her baggage and issues because the great so far outweighted the issues, but unknowingly accepted what ultimately turned out to be a real challenge. I know my role in our problems, know its source, owned it, fixed it, apoligized for whatever hardships I contributed. I have been as loving as any man could ever be for a woman and she's not even in a place to love herself, never mind live with my love. It's a f'ing tragedy because she's too far gone and we're all going to take a soul beating for the rest of our live...her, me. my kids, future garndkids will never know the family we once were, a family that everyone loved, looked up to and wanted to be part of.
