Saturday Night was hard, consisted a me a my bother trying to find evidence of an A . What a shocker nothing was found. Got mad that she didn't send a text letting me know she wouldn't be home with the kids and that they were sleeping over. Honestly I was never the control freak before, but boy that sounds very controlling.
I have become incredibly anxious to be around her given how she acting. Given the problems in our previous R she knows that I am looking for the quick fix. I would like to say that I am here for the journey and realize that there are many missteps along the way.
I am trying to follow the 37 rules as well. I am trying to act like this wall between us is not bothering me (smile on my face) when we are together.
I have to continue strengthening my R with the kids, i have also found that doing the chores around the house takes my mind off of things.
I realize that when W comes home I have to be pleasant and not lash out at her for not texting and not start with 20 questions. I am not use to this zombie I am now living with.
