well regardless of your goals (or how SHE will see them)...you have said enough.
Don't write anymore b/c there is nothing left to say about your past.
Stick to the "NOW" and future plans for the kids.
Please, say no more to your ex w about what you feel now about the past or what you felt then, or anymore about it.
If I tell you all the reasons I feel this way, you will engage in the details of it and defend or argue, I think. So you'll lose sight of the forest for the trees.
But what is left to say about the past? ("NOTHING" is the answer)
Be here now.
((( )))
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016