Forgiveness

[antlers]

I've been thinking about some stuff lately...how fuked up things turned out. I read on another thread here recently of a LBS who was hurt and wondered when his hurt could be addressed. A WAS spoke up and said that was sort of like wanting to bring up the fact that your W "hit you back." That resonated with me. I thought about it a long time, and later sent her this.....

Ex, I'm sorry that I hurt you before and during our marriage. I know my behavior caused you emotional pain. I know my behavior was a violation of our marriage vows. I had no right to treat you and the kids like I did. I had no excuse for treating you and the kids like I did. You had every right to be angry with me. I will not be making those mistakes ever again. I know you still have a heart, even though I did some damage to it. I'm so sorry; I deeply regret ever having hurt you. - antlers

I'm not backsliding, or pursuing. I just felt motivated to convey some things to her. Almost a day later I also sent her this.....

Regarding our kids...I know that the absolute best thing that a man can do for his children is to love their mother. I regret very much that I didn't show that. You were the best thing that ever happened to me...and I blew it. I will not be making those mistakes ever again. I apologize for taking you for granted. - antlers

I just wanted to acknowledge some things to her, hopefully for her benefit. I wanted to be decent and honest...regardless of anything else. That's it.